The Strength of this woman is knowing…
When to not say anything
You told me I was special
No woman had ever treated you
with such love, and respect.
I scratched your head…while mine itched
You told me I was sweet
That no one could make you laugh, or shudder
Loved me to dress up just for you
Made your toes curl….. while I lay hungering…
Momma taught me not to say anything
Never show your fears or tears
Say yes, when you mean no!
You told me that you needed me
I wanted to believe you so….
Built me up with your big soft hands
Shoring me with tender kisses and promises of more
You saw my dreams the ones you opened for me
You saw my power coming on the wind
While I whispered visions of my tomorrow in your ears
Your fears and doubts began to take hold
No longer under your control
Drinking in the golden liquid of courage
So you could savor the tearing down of my soul
You didn’t want to make this work
Not as pretty as your ex’s you kept nearby
Pictures like trophy’s to soothe your pride
They dressed right, they acted right…
Left their dreams at the side of the road
You said you have all you need
I realize it’s not enough for me….
I hold up my head, look you straight in the eye
Making my body stand tall, as…I walk by
Closing the door, I don’t hear you anymore
Sitting in my car I cry
Knowing in my heart
Where my future really lies…
Not with you…..although I feel love stirring inside
Momma never taught me anything
It’s not her paradigm its mine
One month later you call……
I quietly say goodbye…………
By Celeste Duckworth
Copyright 2010 All Rights Reserved
“My Strength” was just accepted by Big Table Publishing to be added to a book about, “A Woman’s Empowering Moment.” Thanks Big Table…looking forward to reading the book…and other contributors…